I know, it’s been a little while since my last post. I suspect it will likely be another month or two before the next one since I have been absolutely out of my mind occupied with life. I’m working a lot but I’m fitting in activities where I can. Chewbacca and I competed in our first agility competition since arriving back in the US. Running in a mask was a bit brutal for my asthmatic self but it was a really good day. It was so good to see familiar faces (both dogs and humans) and to just run the courses and play with my wild one. He did so well!
I’m still looking for “home” and have decided I’m going rural this time, so last weekend I embarked on a scouting trip to the other side of the mountains. I think I’m mostly committed to buying a tiny home to put on some acreage. I toured a few tiny homes while I was over there and fell head over heels for them. They are very me. They’re much roomier than I’d expected, almost bordering on more space than I could possibly need for my dogs and myself. There’s plenty of room for me, yet there’s just enough of a lack of space to discourage anyone from considering moving in with me. Heaven really. I haven’t decided whether or not I’ll buy one on wheels or just have one built on a foundation. I suppose it’ll depend on the property and finances.
I’m still missing Scotland and missing my friends a whole helluva lot. It’s good to be back but, naturally, there have been challenges. That’s life. I just roll with the punches and things are what they are. When things seem dark, I look for the light shining in through the cracks. I’m seeing a lot of light. It’s still early on and I have no clue what my future will look like but I’m reasonably optimistic. While I’m doing well, it’s only fair to be completely honest and admit that this process has not been 100% puppies and rainbows. Actually, nothing about this has been easy. This is a huge life change. The divorce has done irreparable damage to the way I view people and relationships. It has also shown me who is truly there when I’m knocked down, who hangs around when others scatter, who is there for me, not what they can get from me. I have some fucking amazing people in my life and I’m blessed beyond measure. While I will leave this whole process with unseen scars, I’m always reminding myself to focus on the blessings in my life, the light between the cracks, not the darkness.
I will absolutely be continuing the blog; it will just be longer periods between posts for a little while. There is so much going on right now, it’s difficult to find time to post. Once I find my new home and the move is done, then hopefully I’ll have a little extra time and mental stamina to blog more than once every couple of months. You’ll find some pictures below from my recent trip to Eastern WA. I suppose I should throw in a cheeky agility photo from our competition the other weekend as well. I love this dang dog!
Until next time!
BROTHERS, LOVE IS A TEACHER, BUT A HARD ONE TO OBTAIN: LEARNING TO LOVE IS HARD AND WE PAY DEARLY FOR IT. IT TAKES HARD WORK AND A LONG APPRENTICESHIP, FOR IT IS NOT JUST FOR A MOMENT THAT WE MUST LEARN TO LOVE, BUT FOREVER. (FYODOR DOSTOYEVSKY, THE BROTHERS KARAMAZOV)